Miss you mom...

Today marks three years, actually it has been about three years and one hour since I lost my mom from this world. I have to say that because I know that she is in a much better place and I will see her again one day in heaven BUT it still doesn't bring that much comfort to your heart when it hurts. And after three years it still hurts.

She was such a great mom, we were truly blessed to have in our our lives. Her warmth, compassion, smile, laugh, silly ways all made her so much fun to be around. She was a fantastic mom, wife, sister, aunt, cousin, friend, volunteer, role model...the list goes on and on. She always did the sweetest little things to let you know she cared. From a little card/care package, impromptu shopping/lunch trip, bringing Hunter puppy all the way down to Longwood once a month for a picnic with his mommy & daddy (me & Todd), a phone call just to check in, a day at the craft show or Garden Ridge on our shopping excursions, taking the doggies for walks, wine tasting fun :), movie nights, yummy brownie sundaes when we would come stay over, scrap booking classes, planning our wedding, helping with home stuff- painting, fence building, etc. Laughing hysterically at Larry the Cable Guy on the trip to PA :) The list really goes on and on....We shared so many special times together over the last 10 years of my adulthood, let alone childhood. I just have to be selfish and say that I wanted her here so much longer than that.

But I would be lying if I didn't admit that I am so sad that she has missed out on the last three years. Over the last three years our family has grown from 2 to 5 and I know she would have LOVED her 3 new grand babies. How? Because she was such a great grandma to Justin, she loved him to pieces and thoroughly enjoyed every moment that she got to spend with him. From the moment she knew he was on the way until the last time she got to see him in the hospital she LOVED him so much and I know she still does. What "little girl" doesn't want her mom around to see her kids grow up? That is so hard for me. To know that they will never know her, and what a WONDERFUL woman she was. I talk about her all of the time to Lucas and he knows her pictures and that she is Grandma and she lives in heaven with God and Hunter :) But I wish so much that she was here to love these sweet angels. Especially now that I have these two sweet girls. Not because I think she would love having granddaughters- I know she would but just as much as her grandsons- but, because now I know just how precious the relationship is between a mom and her daughter having traveled this road, and I feel so blessed that God gave me the opportunity to experience that again, even if it is on the other side of things. (Me playing the "mom" role this time around).

Sorry I have been MIA here for awhile. There is so much on my plate and I am just trying to soak these little girls in before they get to big too fast! Not to mention we do not have wireless Internet anymore so I have to be in the kitchen to get on the PC and that is a rarity, well at least without a baby in my arms! Two is a challenge at times but I don't feel like we have "double trouble" or "our hands full" like so many strangers point out to us...(that is another post in itself, public attention with twins goes hand in hand...and you all know me I am pretty much an introvert ;) ) Instead I feel that we were doubly blessed and our hearts are what are full. Minus that little ache that still misses my momma :) I will try to update again soon. Love to all!!! :) Here are a few new pictures of the little ones...